Wednesday, November 21, 2007
Title: Practical...Today was my practical test and it was at 4pm which is like so late. Cuz I start lesson at 8am, so my day was long. I was the last one to be tested so I have to wait until 5pm plus... From the morning, I keep having stomachache but the shit is not coming out. Yumei they all went for the practical first as they start at 3pm. We went at 4pm. I was the last one to be left at the waiting room, I do not like the feeling... Making me more nervous and nervous... Yee peng they all came out and heard them saying they did well... Thought that the examiner was nice. But the feeling she gave me was not nice at all. I was the last one, she like kind of hurrying me. Making me forget a few steps. I just think that I did not do well this time round and my feeling is always right. I did a lot of stupid mistakes. But I count myself lucky that I did not get the other group examiner. OR else I will fail also. Just now called valen and ziqin, hope that they are alright....
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
Title: Heart tear apart...Week started off with so many unhappy things... Presentation today, teacher keep asking questions non-stop. What will you feel if you are the one down there presenting? The longest presentation of the class... One or two classmates giving the kind of blur look and shaking head. Making teacher asking us more... I feel so sour in my heart... Y are they like that? If I am the one down there presenting, I will just be a slient listener. Down there listening to the presentation. Tinkng of what happen in the presentation, make me so sad... Y am I so emotional... I hate myself being like that... Yesterday messaging jospeph, making me feel so bad... I did not mean to hurt him or what... More and more things making my heart more and more sour....
Sunday, November 11, 2007
Title: hmm...The previous post was posted in a fit of anger and sadness... So a lot of things written in there is purely my way of nagging... Ah ma, my group members gt help me to do things, everyone of us did our part... But just that something happen in between... Anyway thanks a lot ah ma and remember my chocolate.. :D
Saturday, November 10, 2007
Title: Stresssss....I am simply too stressed up man... I hate this semester terribly...
Project, I am always the one to edit on this and make sure everything is going smoothly... I am tired of it!!! Sending me stuffs at the last minute like evening, to edit on it... It is too last minute for me... I do not like ppl to send me things at the last last minute... Leader also do not know whether report need to be hand in by when... I do not want to be the one always helping u gals to find out things... U are stress... Everybody is stress... U breakdown, I will breakdown too...
In sch, I pretend not to have a stress look on my face. But inside me is really struggling like hell... I miss ting ma, yh u all... Only u gals will notice that I am not alright even with a alright on my face... :( Really feel like crying man... Y am I in this course initially!!!!