Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Title: I am fine now...This few days did not went smoothly for me... Inside of me is struggling hard to fight the fear. Was super moody. Monday class started at 1pm, went to school. Saw valerie outside my tutorial room. The moment I saw her, I know I will cried out. Maybe because you gals are so close to me and the moment I saw you gals, I break down. Sorry val, to give you a fright. Was shocked when I heard that you broke up with him. He is a bastard. You will find a better guy, do not worry. Wipe my tears and went to tutorial class. Knowing that my eyes are still a bit red. I was very quiet for the lesson, trying hard to control my tears. I do not want to cry in front of my poly friends. Tutorial ended early... The moment I called Ah ma, I cried again... This time round was even worst... Sry again ah ma to give you a fright. But deep inside me, I am really afraid. I want to be a nurse. I do not want because of my hand, that I cant be a nurse. Thanks wan tian to be there... I do not want to tell too many people about what happen to me. As I think that it is not necessary to tell so many people about it. Went to see western doctor, she told me that is a trigger finger. The tendon in my finger just snap. So will have difficulty moving my that finger to make it straight. She gave me anti-inflammatory drugs to eat first. If it is not getting any better, then will have to inject steriods into my joint space. If that doesn't help too, then have to go for Op. I asked my lecturer who is a doctor, said that it is not going to affect my career. That good... So I am really fine this few days.. It gonna take time for my finger to heal and have to change the way I hold my pen so as to avoid straining my that injured finger...
Ps: Really thanks val, ah ma, yh to be there for me.. Also ah tian and jenna... Thanks a lot ppl...
Saturday, January 26, 2008
This post will be the first post of year 2008. This post is a sad post... So many things happen within one week to my friends and me. Two of my friends family member passed away. My middle finger is getting more pain. Went to see chinese's doctor today then she said that is arthritis and because of stiffness of the joint that why result in this... How can that happen to me? People get that when they are older? Will it affect my career? I am bonded somemore and it is my dominant hand. The person said that nurses do get this sometimes. Next week practical, the examiner is... Will I fail? I definitely will try my best to pass but I have to face the fear that I will meet during practical... Let everything be fine... Pls...