Wednesday, September 28, 2005
Title: DepressionWhy did she get b3 and I get only b4 for CCA. I worked so hard for my st john, spent so much effort on it and in the end this is what I get. She did not do anything, just stand there and she get b3. Is this fair? Is this fair? There is nothing I can do. I felt so miserable. I really get tired of telling my friends about this. I want this thing to get off of my mind. But it keep on lingering in my mind. I sacrafice so much for St John, the effort that I put in everybody can see. And this is what I get... Even my SS, I am the top in class but I do not feel happy at all. This CCA stuff have bought such a big impart on me. And vanish all my happiness. Seeing her make me remember the incident. What to do? And make me feel angry...
Friday, September 23, 2005
Title: PrelimIt have been so long since I last posted. This week I having my prelim, I had tried my best for every subjects except physics. Really do not want to say much about my study.
I have been keeping a distance from her, like not hanging out with her in school. One of the reason is that so she can spend more time wif him instead of me. He is going away soon and I know she is miserable although she did not tell me. But I will let her have more time with him instead of me.
These few months, really very tired with my study. After my prelim, my engine will be on again and till the end of O lvl....