Thursday, June 26, 2008
Title: It happen again...Everything was going smoothly this morning, went to our space and sat down and play monoploy. Really have lots of fun. At that moment, all my stress was all gone. But this does not last long. Went for NSL lesson, teacher told us that our class have the majority percentage of failure for theory paper. Somehow I am mentally prepared for the worst. She shown us the result. I saw my marks. The first word that came out of my mouth was "Fuck". Then I started telling myself, is okay. Is okay to fail. I can take it. But this really does not work well. The feeling was not good at all. I called yee huay and she came down and accompany me. I know is okay to fail. But this three years, I have never fail before. It been so long, and this happen again. Is like falling from a high building. And the next moment, I am died. But keep telling myself, life still have to go on. Look at the brighter side. But inside me is really... I cant believe that I actually failed, teacher is disappointed. I am disappointed in myself too. NS5 got a Dt... Is either a fail or a Dt result...
Tmr is our video presentation, stay in school until 11pm plus with ziqin and wan tian to edit it. Thanks ah ma for staying too... I really hope tmr everything will go well... I cant afford to have another blow anymore...